How is it that there are no messages on your page? Where did they all go? How I wish I could send you a message that you could read with your heavenly eyes. But maybe you can. For all I know, you may be standing next to me, watching me write, and feeling my sorrow. I don't know what you are able to see and hear and do now that you are on the other side of this life. I have a feeling you are so busy in heaven, shaking hands with all the "greats" from all time, and meeting all the old folks from "Ancestry.com" that you looked up so diligently...but most of all, you are sitting at the feet of Jesus...bowing in His presence...praising the King of kings and Lord of lords. You are there in His presence...and yet, so am I. I am also in His presence...just a breath away from where you are.
Someday we will be reunited and what a day of joy that will be. Until then, we will keep your flame burning bright. We will hold your dear ones close, and we will look toward the heavens each night and whisper our prayers to the One Who now holds you close.
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| Matthew on his 41st birthday, just 3 months before he passed from earth to heaven. Sure gonna miss that boy! |
Until then,
Love Always,
Mom and Dad and your brothers and wifey and son and Nanny.
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There are All Good Things in Heaven, and it is better than anything we can imagine. Someday we will be reunited with our dear loved ones. Bless your heart.
ReplyDeleteYes, I know that...and I've been trying to imagine it ever since Matthew crossed over into the arms of Jesus. I am so happy for him. Sad for us, but we know where he is...and yes, we will see him again some sweet day. Thank you Terra.
DeleteHow very precious, Pam. I continue to pray for the family. Hugs across the miles!
ReplyDeleteThank you Dianna. Every day is a new experience in grief, sorrow, and joy mixed in, knowing that our son is now free of all sickness and disease, and he is basking in the Sonlight of Jesus. I am so happy for him...but trying to figure out how to deal with the fact that I can't pick up the phone and call him and hear his voice...I do wish God would give us that privilege...but then, that would spoil the surprise and mystery of heaven for us. I just have to be patient and wait for my turn. Thank you for the hugs. I can feel them...and I need them! :)
DeleteIt you could call him, you wouldn't want to put down the phone. That's what I think about grief, anyway. That's the hard part of it. Even though you know and love where he is--THAT he is where he is--he still isn't where YOU are. The two edged sword of it all, loving that he's no longer suffering, knowing that he's in the throne room, but also missing him fiercely. You, who got to see every new step in his life from when he first sat up and rolled over, learned to walk, started school, cannot see THIS new step, this most important, ultimate new step. That's hard and it's okay that it's hard. God gets it, I think. He knows what it's like to lose a son. He lost His own. He must have grieved His own, too. So I think He gives grace for it, and allows for you to feel both things at once, to struggle with YOUR loss even as you understand that it's Matthew's gain. I continue to pray for you and your family as you do the very hard, very real work of grieving.
ReplyDeleteWow...you certainly touched every part of what I am feeling right now. Thank you. Yes, God is giving us the grace we need to go on, but He's also allowing us time to mourn and grieve and heal from the hurt that our precious son is no longer here with us. Every day somehow spawns new memories, but that's ok. I don't ever want to forget this child. But I want to remember how wonderful it is that he is experiencing all the joys of heaven right now...and when it's my turn to go, he'll be there to show me around! Thank you for taking the time to write. You really nailed it. :)
DeletePam: Please know that you are a very strong person. God has made you that way for whatever reason He has. You are right; you will be reunited with him when you get to go there. I believe Matt will be waiting for you there just inside the gate. I have continued to pray for you this week.
ReplyDeleteI guess what I am learning is that Christ's strength is being made perfect in my weakness. Strange that my "One Word for 2014" is "Strengthen"....and I certainly know why God directed me to choose that word for the year, because that is exactly what He is doing in my life. However, right now I feel pretty weak. Every day is a new challenge...but I know I am not alone in this journey. God is ever present to comfort, to heal, and to strengthen my steps. Thank you for these reminders today. Blessings to you my friend.
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