Another episode in the life of our family, and especially in the life of our precious son Matthew.
This story takes place way back in time...when my husband had decided to begin his preparation for the ministry and attend a graduate program in Bible and Missions. We had moved out of state far away from family and familiar surroundings, and we were hoping that John would not have to work full time
so that he could devote as much time as possible to his studies. We were also hoping that I would not have to
leave the children (two little boys at the time ages 3 and 18 months) to go to work.
A seemingly tall order, “but with God, all things are possible!”
(Matthew 19:26)
Somewhere along the line I responded to an ad seeking a
couple to be house-parents at a home for boys.
The ad said that this home was located on a farm about fifty miles from
the city in which we were living.
Although the distance from the college might present a problem for John,
the other details appeared to be a workable solution to our dilemma. The directors of the home contacted us and
came to our home for an interview. The
job itself looked simple enough; we would be house-parents to approximately ten
boys, each about ten years old. We would live in a “cottage” with them, and
would have our own personal bedrooms and bath.
I would be responsible for the laundry of our group and the general
upkeep of the cottage. This was a
“Christian” home for boys, and we were to have devotions with them at bedtime
and attend church together on Sundays.
It certainly looked like an answer to our prayers. I would not have to leave our own children
while working, and our room and board would be provided along with a small
salary. John learned that there was a family
in that town whose son was also attending the same college, and they would be
able to car-pool! The main concern was
the fact that we would be giving up a certain amount of family privacy and
freedom, but it was a ministry to young boys who needed a strong father and
loving mother image. We felt God was
giving us the “go-ahead” to embark on this new adventure, and we moved to the
“farm” the first of September.
The Testing
Begins
James 1:2 “My brethren, count it all joy when you fall
into various trials, know that the testing of your faith produces patience…”
The experiences we had over the following several months
are too numerous, and some too depressing to describe. The ministry with the boys was very special
to us; we learned a lot about giving and receiving love with those who were
craving such attention and demonstrations of affection. However, our relationship with the Director
of the “home” was less than idyllic.
Although he claimed to be a Christian, the examples of Christ-likeness
were, in our opinion, few and far between.
There was such a spirit of fear, dogmatism, and overpowering authority
that we sometimes cringed beneath the load.
Our spirits were quenched in the fire of this man’s wrath that was often
displayed. Our hearts would break as
discipline was often unmercifully doled out and we would fight back tears of
anger and frustration at being totally unable to do anything about the
situation. My days left alone there at
the farm were often filled with fear, anguish, and bitter remorse. John would come home after school to find me
thoroughly defeated, and yet quite often fighting mad.
One day, however, something happened that changed our
lives completely. It was my
responsibility each afternoon to greet our “boys” at the school bus, and
supervise them in getting out of their school clothes and into “work
clothes”. “Play clothes” were unheard of
as playing was considered a waste of time.
I would then escort them to the dining hall where they were to do
homework until supper. While the boys
from our cottage were changing their clothes on this particular day, my own two
little sons were out in the yard riding their “big-wheels” around on the
sidewalks.
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Matthew on his big wheel |
I kept looking out the door
to check on them, and they were fine. Besides, one of the other house-parents
was standing nearby in the yard talking to the Director. I had no sooner gone back inside the cottage
to hurry the boys along when one of the older boys from the farm came running
into the cottage yelling, “Come quick! Your son has just been hit by a
car!” There was no time for questions,
and in a panic I ran to the dining hall where I was told he had been
taken. To my horror and shock, there sat
my ashen-hued eighteen-month-old baby, bleeding profusely from the scalp,
barely crying, with a towel wrapped around his head. “Let’s get him to the hospital!” I screamed
in anguish. The Director hesitated, and
then responded, “Well, I suppose he should go…”
I grabbed baby Matthew in my arms and immediately ran to
the car of the other house-parent. This
woman was the lady who had actually run over Matthew as she had started to back
out of the driveway, but her car was the only one available and we had to move
quickly! She jumped in the car and away
we drove. Sorrowfully, I had to leave my
three-year-old son, Benton, standing there with an elderly lady who had “just
happened” to come spend some time at the farm that week. She assured me that
she would take care of him. I wanted to
reach out and comfort him, as he was so obviously distressed. After all, it was his screams that had
alerted the driver of the car that something was wrong in the first place! But
we had no time to lose, and we rushed away to the local hospital. All I could do was pray that God would give
him the comfort that only He could give at such a time.
We literally flew through town to the small hospital,
honking the horn and driving down the middle of the road as fast as we could
go. As I held Matthew tightly in my arms
I cried, “Please don’t let my baby die!” and “Please, Lord, let there be a good
doctor at the hospital when we get there!”
This was a small rural hospital, and good doctors were scarce in that
community.
We safely arrived at the hospital, and as the Lord would
have it, the BEST surgeon in town “just happened” to be in the hospital! Matthew was taken to an examining room, and I
was allowed to stay with him and hold him while they took the x-rays and
examined his head. He was then whisked
away into surgery, where they cleaned all the dirt and gravel from out of his
terribly torn scalp, and pieced the skin back together. Meanwhile John arrived at the hospital. When he got home from the college he was
given the startling news and rushed right over immediately. Soon the doctor came out of surgery and
assured us that Matthew was stable, but he wanted to send him to the large
county hospital fifty miles away by ambulance so that he could be observed by a
neurosurgeon. He told us that Matthew
had a large fracture on one side of the skull, extending from the crown of his
head down to his ear. On the other side
of the skull was another hairline fracture, but there was no indication at that
time that either of the fractures was depressed. That was encouraging news to hear, for a
depressed fracture would have heightened the risk of brain damage.
Later that night I had a terrible time trying to sleep in
my little cot next to Matthew’s crib in the hospital room. Every time I’d close my eyes, I’d see the
whole incident over and over again, and I’d wake up trembling and crying. Finally the emergency room doctor gave me a
sedative, and I was able to rest. The
next morning I was awakened early by a phone call from a young lady at the
college where John was attending. She
told me that the whole college had been praying all night long in shifts for
Matthew, and they just wanted us to know that they cared. I rejoiced to tell her that Matthew had slept
peacefully through the night, and his vital signs were excellent, and that it
appeared their prayers had certainly been answered! As a matter of fact, he was
standing up in his crib at that moment talking to me! We spent a week in the
hospital, and Matthew was released with no sign of brain damage or other
complication! What a miracle!
At the end of the week we returned to “the farm”. Benton had been wonderfully cared for by that
same dear lady who had arrived at the time of the accident. However, she had departed for her home that morning
before I arrived. I did not even have a
chance to thank her. It was as if God
had placed her there just for that purpose for that period of time, and when
her task was over, she was sent back home.
I have thanked the Lord many times since for sending “Big Mama” to care
for our son that week.
As you can see God carried us through some difficult tests and trials on our road to learning to trust in Him. I wish I could say that from then on everything was rosy cozy...but real life isn't like that, especially when one steps into the arena of standing up for the truth. But I can honestly say that even though times were rough, God was always there with us, and He has never let us down. No matter what the outcome of the tests and trials.
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Baby Matthew, after his accident. Back to his happy normal self, praise God! |
I'll have to finish this story later. It gets better...but just so you aren't left wondering, no, we did not stay at that place very long after this accident...and yes, God did provide another place for us to live and the means to survive until John finished his course of study that year...but that's another story for another day.
As of this writing, March 20, 2014, our son Matthew, now age 41 years, is battling for his life again, this time from a much deadlier foe, cancer. For more on Matthew's life story, see this:
"God's Perfect Timing", and this:
"Trust His Heart".
Post Script: On May 25, 2014, God called Matthew home to heaven. His battle with cancer was over, and he was perfectly healed at the moment he stepped foot into heaven's gates. For more on this please read:
"How Could I Not Want This Day to Come?". Thank you for your continued prayers for Matthew's wife and son Noah.
Oh my goodness, what a story! My first surprise in the story was when you said that "The job itself looked simple enough - caring for 10 boys, 10 years old."!!! Yikes! I would never call that a simple task! haha! You are one amazing woman, dear Pamela!
ReplyDeleteThank you, Susie. No, I am not an amazing woman, but I have an amazing God! Trust me on that one...only God could have helped me survive the ordeal that enveloped us once we set foot on that property. They say that trials come to make us strong...so I guess that was the beginning of our "strengthening exercises". Also, I was MUCH younger then...! (that makes a big difference!) Love ya dear Susie.
DeleteOh Pamala, I can see your faith in your words.We do have an amazing God and He is able to carry us thru the storms in our life. I agree with Susie,it takes a strong person to care for ten 10 year old boys plus 2 toddlers of your own.Praying your day is blessed.
ReplyDeleteThank you Sylvia. It is so wonderful to see you back again. I'm glad you had a little vacation. As I told Susie above, I was MUCH younger then! I know I wouldn't even attempt anything like that now! God knows what we can do and how far to stretch us. Thank you for your prayers. May your day be blessed as well.
DeleteI read this earlier. I know God was with you then and will be with you and your family now.
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