I was just thinking that I haven't been posting much lately...primarily because I've been busy with a lot of stuff and just can't seem to sit down and concentrate on a new blog post as often as I'd like. So now and then I like to revisit some of my old posts from the past, and today I discovered this one from my "Random Journal Days"...and it was from my old teal notebook journal from the 1990's, and landed on October 12, 1991. Columbus Day! So here it is...today, October 12, 2017...26 years later!
"Columbus Day -- Aunt Nellie's birthday" (my husband's "favorite" aunt, now RIP) , "practically the middle of October already. Where has the year gone? This year was so full of trauma, 'busy-ness', fear, sorrow, joy, tears, laughter, rushing to and fro, wonder, amazement, disbelief, faith--a lot of opposite emotions and activities--many days are just a blur--they all ran together--it seems on one hand like a very long time, and on the other hand, like only yesterday...and now we come to October..."
(I won't go into all the details of what was going on at the time...but it was a very difficult year and I was feeling the stress and strain of "too much"...and as I went on in my journal to talk about some hopes and dreams for our future, I finally expressed the innermost feelings of my tired, worn out heart and soul)
"I don't ever want to stand in the way of God's will for us and block the path by selfishness and stubbornness. Nor do I wish to attempt to dictate to God what He should do with regard to our future.
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord--forever.' (Psalm 23:6)
Postscript: That old table above belonged to my husband's grandmother, and has been used for close to ninety years...to serve family, friends, visiting ministers and missionaries, strangers and possible angels in disguise. Most recently used to host a bridal shower luncheon for my new daughter in law to be! Oh if tables could talk! What a story they could tell of the conversations heard around that table for almost a century! And the prayers and blessings that have been given for the meals that were so lovingly prepared....for holidays, special occasions like birthdays and anniversaries...wow! I guess I could write another whole post just on this table!! But, think about this...that old table could have been thrown out years ago because it does have cracks and humps and nicks and scratches. It is heavy and cumbersome and awkward to move...but I just keep pouring on the furniture oil to restore it and revive it and keep it going...and God has blessed that table with His grace all these years...