"Columbus Day -- Aunt Nellie's birthday" (my husband's "favorite" aunt, now RIP) , "practically the middle of October already. Where has the year gone? This year was so full of trauma, 'busy-ness', fear, sorrow, joy, tears, laughter, rushing to and fro, wonder, amazement, disbelief, faith--a lot of opposite emotions and activities--many days are just a blur--they all ran together--it seems on one hand like a very long time, and on the other hand, like only yesterday...and now we come to October..."
(I won't go into all the details of what was going on at the time...but it was a very difficult year and I was feeling the stress and strain of "too much"...and as I went on in my journal to talk about some hopes and dreams for our future, I finally expressed the innermost feelings of my tired, worn out heart and soul)
"I don't ever want to stand in the way of God's will for us and block the path by selfishness and stubbornness. Nor do I wish to attempt to dictate to God what He should do with regard to our future.
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord--forever.' (Psalm 23:6)