I've Got Writer's Slump

Ok, So I admit it...I'm in a slump...a rut...a dry spot in the road.  I've got nothing to say. I'm feeling kind of blue, out of sorts, frustrated, lost. Can't seem to find my groove. My life seems to have hit a detour, I must have made a wrong turn somewhere.  I'm in a daze, fumbling around in a haze.  And it's not even purple.  (does that even make sense?)

Have you ever been there? Do you know what this feels like? Can you help me find my way back home?

No, don't panic.  I haven't gone off the deep end (yet).  I don't think I'm depressed...(well, maybe just a little).  I'm sure I'm not suicidal or homicidal, so don't run for your lives. (yet) ( lol)  

I've just hit a bump in the road and it's thrown me a little off kilter.  No, nothing horrendous has happened, I'm not having a mid-life crisis (it's too late for that...I'm way past mid-life). My husband isn't having a mid-life crisis (been there, done that).  My kids aren't doing anything unusual or weird (that I know of at the present time).  I don't have any major illnesses or diseases (again, that I know of), and I'm still taking my hormones on schedule.

I don't do drugs (maybe I should?) (just kidding)  I don't drink, I don't smoke. I don't chew.   I am a total tea-totaler...(I love tea...hot, iced, herbal, full-bodied, English, Irish, Lipton)

I love Jesus, He loves me.  I love my husband and my family. They love me.  My father is almost 93, and he is showing signs of "signing off" from this life.  I'm trying to prepare myself for that reality.  My mother in law is 87 and has come to live with us, and is having some physical and emotional issues that are creating a bit of stress, and I am trying to adjust.  My middle son (he calls himself "Number Two"), has a very rare and aggressive cancer,  (age 38, married, with one son), but at the present time appears to be in a kind of remission, although not officially called that. According to his oncologist he is doing remarkably well.  So I am relieved and very thankful. My oldest son lives at home with us and needs a  job, but he's been such a help to us I almost hate to see him go out and get a job.  My youngest son is doing fine and hasn't needed our help for a while, so that is a positive sign.  I've survived a full year at a new job that started out very stressful, but has become more manageable and I think I actually know what I am doing. (well, sometimes). 

I say I am a writer.  I haven't exactly written a book , but I have written enough to become a book, if anyone is interested enough to read it. Maybe someday it will actually be a book...If I ever get over this writer's slump I'm in, that is.

Maybe I need to do what Jesus told His disciples in Matthew 16:24-26

"If anyone desires to come after Me, let him deny himself, and take up his cross, and follow Me.  For whoever desires to save his life will lose it, but whoever loses his life for MY sake will find it.  for what profit is it to a man if he gains the whole world, and loses his own soul?  Or what will a man give in exchange for his soul?"  

Lord, I re-commit my life, my soul, and my desires to YOU.  My dreams, my hopes, my expectations...they all are placed in YOUR capable hands.  I surrender them ALL to YOU.  I have no desire for world wide fame or power.  I simply desire to follow YOU...and I give my life to YOU.  That includes my writer's slump and my feelings of frustration and being lost in the haze of this life.  Thank you for what YOU are going to do in my life, and through my life, from this day forward.  Amen.

Now, I am trying to decide, should I post this on my regular blog? Or should I post it on the one where I can actually earn a buck or two if anyone likes it well enough to vote for it?  What would YOU do? Hmmm, wherever this ends up will tell you what I decided.  At any rate, I found something to write about. (Thank you, Lord.)