Psalm 139:1-12 - "O Lord, You have searched me and known me.You know my sitting down and my rising up; You understand my thought afar off.You comprehend my path and my lying down, and are acquainted with all my ways.For there is not a word on my tongue, but behold, O Lord, You know it altogether.You have hedged me behind and before, and laid Your hand upon me.Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; It is high, I cannot attain it.Where can I go from Your Spirit? Or where can I flee from Your presence?If I ascend into heaven, You are there; If I make my bed in hell, behold, You are there.If I take the wings of the morning, and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there Your hand shall lead me, and Your right hand shall hold me. If I say, "Surely the darkness shall fall on me," Even the night shall be light about me; Indeed, the darkness shall not hide from You, but the night shines as the day; The darkness and the light are both alike to You."
How comforting it is to know that the Lord, the Most High God, knows everything about me! I don't have to pretend with Him. I don't have to put on a smiling face and say cheery things when I feel like I'm going to die inside. The fact is, I can't fool Him! I may fool others, even those who are closest to me, but I can't fool God. He knows my thoughts completely...even when I don't comprehend my own thoughts...He knows what they are, and why I thought them! He understands them far better than I ever could. He knows why I aimlessly wander down the paths I wander, and He protects me and even turns me around before I wander too far away. He gives His angels charge over me to guard and guide me when I don't see the dangers lurking around in the shadows waiting to overtake me. He builds His heavenly hedges high about me and shelters me in His loving, protecting arms. He is acquainted with all my ways...everything I think, say, and do, He knows all the reasons...even the reasons I can't remember and don't want to remember. And He understands...He never holds it against me. Such knowledge is to high for me! I cannot understand it! But it is so glorious to realize that the God of Heaven loves me, yes, even me!
Oh God! Where can I go from Your Spirit? Where can I flee from Your presence? Really, Lord, I don't want to ever be out of Your tender watch-care. I want to stay right here, where You are watching me and caring for me, and guiding my footsteps aright. If I stray into darkness for a little while, You are there...keeping me from bumping into the unseen obstacles that could cause me more pain. You shine Your enormous searchlight down on me and light my way so that I can get back on the right path. Of course, You don't need that light, You can see me even in the darkness...there is no darkness in Your eyes.
Proverbs 139:13-18 - "For You have formed my inward parts; You have covered me in my mother's womb. I will praise You, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made; Marvelous are Your works, and that my soul knows very well. My frame was not hidden from You, when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth. Your eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed. And in Your book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them. How precious also are Your thoughts to me, O God! How great is the sum of them! If I should count them, they would be more in number than the sand; When I awake, I am still with You."