"To everything there is a season, a time for every purpose under heaven: A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck what is planted; A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up; A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance; a time to cast away stones; and a time to gather stones; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing; A time to gain, and a time to lose; A time to keep, and a time to throw away; A time to tear, and a time to sew; A time to keep silence, and a time to speak; a time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace." Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 ~
Yesterday I turned 60 years old. The picture above is of me when I was only about 10 months old, just getting my start in this big old world. I look at this picture and I wonder, what was going on inside that little mind of mine? Did I have any clue what my life would be like? Did I even care? Probably not, as long as my immediate needs were being met...a dry diaper, good baby food and bottles, a nice warm bath and someone to hold me and rock me when I was sleepy or afraid. That was all I really cared about at that time...and I really didn't worry about it at all. Afterall, what could I do about it anyway? I could cry, scream, throw a fit, but that was about it. I was totally dependent on my Mama and Daddy to take care of my daily concerns, and apparently they carried through with their responsibilities quite well. I prospered and grew up in health and happiness. I was a very happy baby, child, youth, and young woman. When my parents' time of responsibility for me came to an end, my loving new husband took over my care. He helped to provide my daily necessities as we worked together to provide an income and home for our eventual family. Then the cycle began all over...it was my turn to take care of my little ones and provide their every need until they were able to make it on their own.
Now I am sixty years old, and although I am still thankfully enjoying my good health and "sound mind" (?)...I realize that the day is coming when I will probably become dependent again, only this time on my own children or others who are able to provide that care as needed. But even then, who will really be the One taking care of me? Will it be my children, or the nursing home, or some other agency? Or will it be the ONE Who has been taking care of me all along? The same One Who was there when:
"my inward parts were being formed in the covering of my mother's womb...the same One Who knew all about my frame when I was made in secret, and skillfully wrought in the lowest parts of the earth..."Yes, I know that I can look forward with great confidence for my future as I know my Lord and Saviour is already there, guiding, protecting, saving, and loving me, just as He always has, and just as He always will...for He says He is the "Alpha and the Omega", the "Beginning and the End" (Revelation 1:8)...and again He says in Rev. 1:17-18 ~ "Do not be afraid; I am the First and the Last. I am He who lives, and was dead, and behold, I am alive forevermore."
The same One Whose "eyes saw my substance, being yet unformed...and in His book they all were written, the days fashioned for me, when as yet there were none of them!" The same One that knows me today, Who searches my heart, and tries me, and knows my anxieties; He knows if "there is any wicked way in me", and He "leads me in the way everlasting." (see Psalm 139)
Therefore, "Because He lives, I can face tomorrow...because He lives, all fear is gone...because I know He holds the future...and life is worth the living, just because He lives!" (Bill Gaither...song: "Because He Lives")
How fitting that I should read this today. The last few weeks and month I've been struggling with a hint of panic re: old age. Thanks for the reminder. "I don't know about the future...but I know who holds my hand."
ReplyDeleteAmen, Connie! Obviously, none of us have gotten through this life without some scrapes, bumps and bruises along the way. But the good part is we are safe in the arms of Jesus...and we do not need to fear what this old world can do to us. God is in control!!! Thanks for sharing, Connie. Keep looking up!!
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