What Do You See Outside YOUR Open Window Today?

What Do You See Outside YOUR Open Window Today?
Remember: "When God closes a door, He always opens a window!" You never know what might be out there waiting for you!

Wednesday, September 24, 2014

"I Am Not Worthy"

Have you ever had a song in your head and you couldn't quite remember it all, but it became an obsession to find it?  That's where I was tonight.  So I went online http://www.namethathymn.com/and typed in the title, and finally found the lyrics and the composer:

"I Am Not Worthy" by Beatrice Bush Bixler.  

I also found out that Mrs. Bixler passed away in November of 2013 at the age of 97, having written many such songs, but they never truly received the attention that they should have.  

This particular song I remember hearing first in a Christian & Missionary Alliance church, but I don't know which one or when.  My husband served as a pastor in this denomination from the late 1970's through the early 1990's, and after hearing this song I soon learned it and sang it many times.  Come to find out, Mrs. Bixler was also a member of the C&MA, and she sang at many conferences and churches throughout the years...I may have actually heard her sing it at one time, but I am not certain.

Tomorrow is my birthday. I have already received a couple of "surprise" birthday gifts from totally unexpected sources...and this is how this song came into my mind tonight.  I felt unworthy to receive such thoughtful and sweet gifts from these dear ones, and it reminded me of what Jesus has done for me...also totally unmerited and unexpected...

The words to this song express it best, so I will share them with you here.

"I am not worthy the least of His favor, 

But Jesus left heaven for me; 
The Word became flesh and He died as my Savior, 
Forsaken on dark Calvary. 

I am not worthy this dull tongue repeats it!  
I am not worthy this heart gladly beats it? 
Jesus left heaven to die in my place 
What mercy, what love and what grace! 

I am not worthy the least of His favor, 
But "In the beloved" I stand; 
Now I'm an heir with my wonderful Savior, 
And all things are mine at His hand.


I am not worthy the least of His favor, 
But He is preparing a place 
Where I shall dwell with my glorified Savior, 
Forever to look on His face."


Words and Music by Beatrice Bush Bixler

Copyright 1949 by Singspiration, Inc.

If you would like to hear Mrs. Bixler singing this song herself, you may listen here.

I am happy to report that I found my own copy of this music in an ancient file cabinet full of old sheet music and songbooks that I've saved for all these years.  I don't do much singing anymore, at least not as a soloist.  Age has a way of changing the vocal chords, along with lack of practice and exercise.  But one of my "birthday gifts", lovingly created for my kitchen window by my carpenter son, inspires me to smile and sing every time I walk into the kitchen.  These windows look out into the woods next to our house, and we never know what we might see out there...but most often we see many different birds winging their way from tree to tree, singing their songs of joy as they go about their daily routine of gathering seeds, fruits, insects and worms to feed their families and keep themselves able to fly and sing.  This particular cornice board above the windows needed a message...
(windows before)
and the more I thought about it, the only message that made sense to me was this:

and after...
So now, my heart and soul sing out with the birds as I stand at the window and wash the dishes and prepare our meals...and daydream about the things I'd love to do someday...or pray for friends and loved ones as the Lord lays them on my mind...and think about how...

 "I am not worthy...this dull tongue repeats it! I am not worthy, this heart gladly beats it!" But,
"Jesus left heaven to die in my place! What mercy, what love, and what grace!"

I don't feel worthy of the gifts I've received...more than just the physical birthday gifts...also the gift of salvation. I'm not good.  I've sinned and have fallen short of God's Glory,  (Romans 3:23),and "the wages of sin is death...but the GIFT of God is eternal life through Jesus Christ our Lord." (Romans 6:23)   Because of Jesus, I AM WORTHY!!!  Not because of any good I have done, but only because of Jesus.

The greatest "birthday gift" of all is this gift of new life...eternal life...through Jesus Christ.  Because of Him, I can enjoy my birthday tomorrow, knowing that because of my "Second" birthday, the day I accepted His free gift of salvation...I will one day accept my inheritance of heaven..."forever to look on His face."

I hope you've received this wonderful gift too.  Even if you feel "unworthy" to accept it...Jesus wants you to have it.  So go ahead and take it, it's FREE!


  1. Pam: We all are unworthy of God's love. A friend of mine got a good report from her surgeon. She has been housebound since July of 2013. She had complcations after a knee replacement. YESTERDAY, her surgeon told her she didn't have to see him until January. She got to walk out in her yard.

    Happy Birthday to you. God loves you.

    1. Thank you so much for your thoughts and birthday wishes. And what wonderful news for your friend! I can imagine that she felt like singing herself!!! Such a great gift...to be able to walk again! Something we take for granted until it is taken away...I understand this...having had serious back surgery several years ago due to a slippage of the spine, which was causing my legs to go completely numb. Now I am able to walk and even run (slowly) and leap for joy! So thankful.

  2. Such Amazing Grace that Jesus Christ gave to us as believers, He laid down His life so we could live!
    I hope your birthday was a very happy one. Thanks for your comment on FB for my daughters birthday!

    1. Yes...amazing grace...how sweet the sound...that saved a wretch like me, I once was lost...but now I'm found...was blind but now I see...
      My birthday has been remarkably wonderful and awesome... in humbling, unexpected ways. God is so good to me. I am glad you and your daughter had a good day together. What a lucky daughter to have you for a mother...and to have that special time together. Priceless!


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