What Do You See Outside YOUR Open Window Today?

What Do You See Outside YOUR Open Window Today?
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Sunday, October 12, 2014

Change of Plans

This weekend brought a change in plans for me.  And that's okay.  My original plan was to attend the memorial service of someone very dear to me...the Pastor who married my husband and me 45+ years ago. He (and his sweet wife, who had already preceded him to heaven about a year ago) had a profoundly positive impact on my life, which helped to change my direction to follow God and go wherever He would lead me. I truly wanted to go to that service and celebrate the life of one who had served God faithfully all his life...97 years! I also wanted to show my support to his family, especially his daughter, who was one of my high school friends as well as the person who sang at our wedding. But God had another plan for me this weekend.

My sweet 91 year old mother-in-law recently left her own home and moved in with my husband's brother and his family. She had fought hard to stay independent all these years, but finally surrendered to the fact that it was time for her to quit fighting so hard and allow others help her be safe, secure, and no longer alone.  My brother-in-law and wife have two young school-age children, and the challenges of having a 91 year old grandma living under the same roof with two very active kids can sometimes be difficult to navigate.

So, the kids had a long weekend off from school, and the family wanted  (needed) to get away for a little while. And "Nanny" (Grandma) came to stay with us for the weekend. Now, at first I will tell you that I had planned to go ahead and go to the memorial service on Friday as planned. My husband could stay at home with his mother and everything would be fine.  But when she arrived the evening before, I took one look at her and realized that I could not leave her for several hours while I traveled to another county for that service. She was like a frightened, anxious, clinging child. Yes, she is showing signs of dementia...not severe, but enough to create anxiety and forgetfulness and childish behavior at times. There was no way I could look into her eyes and tell her that I was going to leave her even for a short while when she was already feeling like she was being "sent away" for the weekend from her new home. Now, please do not misunderstand. Her son and family did not ever intentionally make her feel that way. They have been so very loving and caring and gracious with her. But they truly needed a break with their kids. And we wanted them to be able to do that and we definitely wanted her to come spend some time with us.

And so I had a choice to make. It didn't take me very long to recognize what I needed to do. She never even knew that I had other plans, and that's the way I wanted it to remain. I am not telling you this to ask for any praise or otherwise. But my hope is that it will help others in similar situations realize what is more important.  My will vs. helping someone feel comforted and secure.
My sweet mother-in-law, enjoying a special moment holding
my "Baby Elva"...a gift from a good friend

As the weekend progressed, we had many opportunities to share precious memories and show love for one another.  She demonstrated and responded to me in so many ways her love for me as her daughter in law for these many years. I think there was a lot more going on here than just taking care of my mother in law for the weekend. As it turned out, we invited some other mutual friends and family over for a special lunch on Saturday, and she helped me in so many little ways to prepare for our guests. We put on a gospel music CD and harmonized together as I cooked and she chopped onions and dried dishes for me.  We laughed about little things and generally enjoyed spending time together.

I had an opportunity to share with her some things that I have thought about for a long time in regards to my relationship to her. And here you will see that the first part of this particular post intertwines with the second part:

We were talking about the names of my mother in law's parents, grandparents, and her own given name.  Her middle name is "Ruth".  She said she thought she was named for a friend of her mother's whose name was Ruth.  I told her that I always thought she was named for Ruth in the Bible...you know, the "Book of Ruth".  She was very pleased with that thought and had never considered it before.  I explained to her the reason I connected her middle name Ruth with the Ruth in the Bible was because the story of Ruth was not just a love story of Ruth and Boaz, but also a love story of Ruth and her mother-in-law, Naomi.  Then I shared with her that the song that was sung at our wedding...sung by my friend, the daughter of my pastor who had just died...the song that she sang came directly from the Book of Ruth...and even though it was sung as a bride singing to her groom, in reality, the words were written and spoken by Ruth to her mother-in-law Naomi, when Ruth's husband had died and Naomi's husband had also died and she was going to go back to her native land and so she told Ruth to stay with her own family in her own land.  These are the words I shared with my mother-in-law, the words spoken by Ruth to her mother-in-law in the 10th century B.C.:

"Entreat me not to leave you,
Or to turn back from following after you;
For wherever you go, I will go;
And wherever you lodge, I will lodge;
Your people shall be my people,
And your God, my God..."
(Ruth 1:16) 

In sharing this with her, I explained to her that this was the way I felt when I married her son...His "people shall be my people", and his "God, my God." Therefore, she, my husband's mother, was the same to me as if she was my own mother. She expressed to me that she never knew that before and I could see that it truly touched her heart.

I am glad God gave me the opportunity to share that with my mother-in-law this weekend. I am particularly thankful that I listened to His voice and followed the dictates of my heart instead of pursuing my own will. Oh, certainly, going to the memorial service for my former pastor would have been a noble and good thing to do. But God helped me to see that this was where I needed to be this time.  We never know how many chances we will have to spend tender moments with people who have given so much and loved us for so many years. And I am certain that if my Pastor could have told me what to do...this is what he would have advised.

Go HERE for another post about my wonderful Mother in Law

10 comments:

  1. Perfect. Such a perfect post and perfect response to that inner nudge. You will treasure this weekend in future years. Love you Pam.

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    1. Yes, I believe I will. Her moments of clarity are becoming fewer and fewer as the weeks/days pass by. What I am saying is, there may not be another such opportunity. I am thankful God showed me this in time.

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  2. You made a beautiful choice, and how nice you shared with your mother in law about her name, Ruth.

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    1. Thank you Terra. We both enjoyed our special time together. I believe it was definitely a time planned by God.

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  3. Yes a great thing you did for your mother-in-law, sometimes we fail to yield to the Holy Spirit nudging our heart. It was a blessing for you also to share and grow closer in your relationship.

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    1. Yes, we need to savor these precious moments while there is yet time. One thing I have learned this past year...life is very short. Make the most of every opportunity to enjoy the ones we love.

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  4. Hi Pam! I can tell you that you were a lifesaver for your brother in law's family. As a family caregiver for a while, it can get overwhelming. Blessings to you!
    And God used that time for you to share with your mother-in-law the things you felt. Loved the Ruth idea, and I know she did too. What a lovely daughter you are to her. She is very lucky to have you. I know that sons are great, but it's the women who really understand each other, don't you think?
    Blessings,
    Ceil

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    1. Yes, I believe so. Not having any daughters of my own, I do appreciate my one daughter in law so much. Talk about someone who made many sacrifices for the sake of her late hubby, my son Matthew...she truly deserves a medal. Thank you for your thoughts today. It was a time of mutual blessing I can assure you.

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  5. Pam: This is a very tender entry. You did follow God's leading and made the right choice. Your mother-in-law will always have this to remember as a very tender time.

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    1. Yes, and so will I have this to remember. It was a special time together. Thank you for this affirmation. I appreciate it.

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