My blogging friends Dawn from " Beneath the Surface" and Susie from "Recovering Church Lady" have suggested a "Random Journal Day", where those of us who have kept journals randomly select an entry from one of our old journals and share it with each other.
So, with a little fear and trepidation, I have been randomly searching through my old journals for something appropriate to share with you. Maybe I shouldn't have been so selective...perhaps I should have just opened a book and started posting the first thing I put my finger on...but that would not have been a good idea...trust me! Anyway, I finally decided on one that I hope will pass the test (my test for myself), so here goes:
September 30, 2____... The first page in a new journal...written 5 days after my 50th birthday...
"I wish I had remembered to begin this actually on my birthday~but I was too overwhelmed to write! It is hard for me to realize that I am actually 50 years old! Inside I still feel like the same little girl I used to be. Certainly, I've matured & hopefully have grown in wisdom. But deep inside there is still this little girl yearning to see the world and experience all the good things life has to offer. Actually, I have already tasted of many of those things~I've had a beautiful and well blessed life. God has been so gracious unto me. I have excellent health, and a clear mind (most of the time!), and a wonderful home and family.
But there are still some mysteries in life I've yet to discover and understand. There are people waiting to be known and loved, places to be seen and enjoyed, sunrises and sunsets too beautiful to describe waiting to fulfill their destiny. May God be praised for all the glorious things He has done-and is continuing to do."
In this journal entry I went on to detail some of the joys and blessings of my 50th year of life, as well as some of the trials and tribulations. It had been a wonderful year, and also a horrible year, but I won't go into the details here. However, I summed it all up by reciting the words to a little song that I had just learned in my church's Vacation Bible School that previous summer. It had blessed my heart and encouraged my soul so much, that it became my theme song for the whole year. Here it is, the words as sung by Twila Paris:
"Suffice it to say that as I begin this 2nd half of the 1st century of my life, I anticipate God doing some extraordinary and marvelous things. I want to live my life each day as if it were my last day-for none of us knows when that day may be. I want to savor the moments of joy and beauty that come my way...rejoice in the fellowship of friends in the Lord-who are sent to brighten my life--for they are ambassadors of Christ to bring comfort and healing and joy...To worship the Lord more fully in the Spirit of Holiness...to keep my eyes on Jesus, the author and finisher of my faith...to learn to trust Him so much that I am able to walk on the water instead of just wading through the river..."
Wow! It has been almost
And I am still trying to learn to trust Him so much that I am able to walk on the water instead of just wading through the river ... How about you?
|This is me now...still learning to trust Him one day at a time.|
Praise God....He still has NEVER let me down...and He never will!