|One of my "fancier" journals...|
So here goes...this comes from October 12, 1991! Written from our days in the ministry, far away from our family home...and longing for that home... Here's what I was thinking on that day so long ago...
"It's difficult to be so far away from loved ones and feel so helpless. I would love to be able to have more frequent visits together while there is yet time. And yet I'm reminded in God's Word that:
"No one who has left home or wife or brothers or parents or children for the sake of the Kingdom of God will fail to receive manytimes as much in this age and, in the age to come, eternal life." Luke 18:29-30I suppose that means that because we have left our homeland behind to follow God's will we will receive greater blessings than our earthly home - in heaven - and it also says in THIS AGE as well!
I do know that God has supplied all our need in Christ, and that our physical needs have been adequately taken care of. Even though, there is this constant yearning in my soul to have a "real home" - a place in which to feel truly at peace and joy~a home that is a haven from the stresses and strains of this world. A place where I can rest at the end of a fruitful day knowing that there is a great sense of comfort and protection in that house.
Perhaps God wants me to feel that peace no matter where I am~just by resting in Him. And in my soul, I do have that peace. I know my eternal home is safe and secure~my faith in Christ has purchased that home for me. But I believe God wants us to feel that peace here on earth too. There again~I know many of God's servants never have a "real home" here on earth. They are many times forced to live in "tents" or small huts or cottages in foreign lands. Yet they do so willingly~they choose to serve the God Who has chosen them to be His servants.
So what am I trying to say?
I guess the older I get, the more I long to have a place to put down some roots and grow awhile....
I'm ready to stay put and work in the harvest field of wherever that home may be located for many years to come. I'm tired of moving so often and not having any "real friends". It seems as though as soon as we'd begin to make friends and find a place of genuine service, it would be time to move on to new pastures.
It would be nice if the next move we make could be the LAST for many years~but I don't ever want to stand in the way of God's will for us and block the path by selfishness and stubbornness. Nor do I wish to attempt to dictate to God what He should do with regard to our future.